well time is winding down as i only have two weeks left of fucking Lenny's and about a month and a half until I leave for school. it seems like each post is always about the same thing...but fuck it. the main thing im looking forward to the most in leaving the restaurant is the bitchy, overly annoying people that work there. gilly - well yeah we all know hes the only one i can truthfully stand so hes the only thing im...leaving behind? never had to leave a best friend, so its going to be kind of strange.

anyway, i met my roommate at FSU which is awesome. i went through a lot of shit with them to get the dorm I wanted hah but it worked out. my roommate seems awesome and i think it kind of makes the anxiety im feeling about FSU a little more calm.

umm today at work i got pranked. hah gilly put white pepper in my fucking air conditioning vents and on my defrost so when i fucking turned it on it fucking blew all up in my face. ahha i fucking hate him.

until now and august 27th i plan on partying a little bit, nothing too crazy so all of those i havent seen in some time, def. hit me up. not much more to update about..

as this point in time im quite content...

soo, new JOURNAL! woo. well, not new journal but a new layout? yeah true. right now things are going pretty sweet. haven't worked a night since last saturday...but have to work tomorrow. oh well, kind of looking forward to it so we can see hott ass! (just admit it gilly).

as of today, i have EXACTLY one month left at Lenny's. and it feels fucking amazing. i cant wait to quit working. hah all you bitches staying home, have fun working! woo. so im guessing ill take the month before i go to hang out and visit the people i havent seen in forever and get ready to say goodbyeeee..

lately my parents and i have been pretty close - and its kind of strange. i think its because i am leaving in a couple of months. kind of sucks that it takes going away to make it happen, but it is what it is...

lately things have been bothering me about leaving. i want to go, to start all over and meet new people, but i dont want to go because im leaving an awesome life behind...imagine leaving your best friend, and some close friends behind...def. not easy. its weird cuz im starting to save boxes and mom is buying me things for school..its just weird. i dont think im ready.

before i leave there is a lot of shit i want to do. def. gonna have to party it the fuck up before i go. i wanna go crabbing haha (don't know why). i wanna go back to ocean city, go to new york (not happening), get new shoes, get a new cell phone, and yeah.

tomorrrrrow, i get my provisionals off. thats exciting i guess? pretty stupid u have to get a new license to drive past 12AM. haha fuckers. but now i dont have to listen to mom bitch whenever i wanna go out after work.

but yeah def. lots of things running through my mind. the gut wrenching contradiction between staying or going? sadly enough, i'm going... im gonna miss a lot of people and its by far going to be the hardest part. i think my biggest fear is losing contact with everyone. like gilly, its going to be weird not seeing his goofy ass at 3 o'clock everyday...or emily, not walking down the halls with her anymore...or the tech center "crew" - nicole, jenny, sean...ahh so many good times in St. Mary's...

well, thats enough of the sappy, depressing entry..im gonna go lay down..
gnite, bitches..
Dons

unbelievable. in the past month or so a lot has went on, and a lot has changed in my life. im a graduate of the class of 2005 from Chopticon, and a freshman at Frostburg State University. i love it.

soo senior week went down a few weeks ago. it was fucking amazing. the time of my life, i must say. started out gay cuz no one was there but our roomates showed up on sunday. had some drama with that and it led me to confusion with someone. but now things are back to normal again, prolly better than before. senior week was nothing but partying. ems and i were drunk every night we were there and that was our goal. haha. i love her. i partied with some old friends like ashlynn, jessica knott, mandy summers, corey...fucking awesome. passing out on the beach, 100 proof vodka that fucked us up, driving to Tubby's at 4 AM, taxi cab confessions, rednecks at room 302, puking in andrews bathroom, losing my shoes, drunken phone calls, drunk put put.. im gonna miss everyone it sucks cuz its the last time ill see half of those people ever again...and we met tons of awesome people, i just want to go back.

since school has let out and we've all graduated nothing much has changed. a few days ago i visted frostburg and registered for my classes. everyone there was fucking cool and the campus itself is awesome (minus the dorms). i cant wait to go there, but i dont want to leave my job (how sad is that?).

things with katie and i are good again. things feel a lot stronger so im trying to hollar. its awesome we're going to the same college because im def. gonna need her there. im a little pissed off because last night I found out jen hunt was in my learning community at frostburg. and that sucks cuz im def. not going to frostburg to get stuck with CHOPTICON people. err

so its picture time. i never put pictures on here but i am now so deal with it. thanks.

WOW. can you believe it guys? we're finally here. tomorrow is the day of graduation and i cant even explain how i feel about it. im not sure im ready, or want to, but it is definitely an extremely important milestone im ready to encounter. im ready to move on, and be on my own, but im not ready to leave chopticon, or some of the people there.

tomorrow is gonna be hard. i might get sad but i wont show it. im gonna give all of the people i dont think ill ever see again hugs or something. i think graduation is going to be inside of of rain, but whatever.

i dont work again until the 13th - fucking awesome. i leave for Ocean City this weekend and i cant waittttt. i just wanna party my ass off and hang out with people i havent in a long time.

nicole - i love youuuuu. god. im really fucking proud of you, and i meant it. you did awesome, and im glad ill be graduating with you. NEVER forget me boo, and i cant wait to party it up in OC.

like i said, tomorrow is it.
mixed emotions.
im excited.
im scared.
im happy.
im sad.
im outta here -
Dons.

holy shit. last week definitely flew by. im sitting here may 22, 2005 with a completely different attitude than i had four months ago...i used to say this wouldnt phase me as i approach the final four days ever of high school with my best friends...its been an incredible journey, and through it all i think ive found myself...i know who i am, what i want to be, and where i want to go with my life...im quite content with everything...good "relationship" (almost), amazing friends, sweet job, sweet girl, everything...

my biggest fear of leaving is never seeing anyone again...i keep trying to convince myself that i dont care, but i do. im gonna miss a bunch of you, but dont forget how to pick up the damn phone...and all of u better come visit me at Frostburg in the fall.

one person things are really hitting me hard with is nicole...she told me the other night that she didnt think shed ever see me again...and u know, she could be right...i love her to death. i really wish the best for u nicole. we've had some incredible fucking memories...ill never forget you, or anything we've ever done together...

and wow, emily...i cant even tell you what leaving her is going to do to me...i never really realized what im leaving...im leaving my sister, my best friend..emily has been more than a friend i dont know what to say about her...i have never loved someone i like i have loved her in my entire life...emily roache, i love you to fucking death.

gilly is gonna be a hard one to leave. who will i have to bitch at everyday? or make fun of people for, and talk about how hott the servers are at our work?...or go to dinner with every weekend?...and its definitely going to be 10x harder because hes going through a rough time right now and i want to be here through it...but i dont think ill be here all the way through it...

the one thing i dont know how to do is let go. i dont want to, and im not ready to. but i think the future speaks much stronger than friendships ive established these past 17 years of my life. as much as i want to stay with you guys, i have to go...its going to be hard for everyone, but stay strong..especially you nicole. be smart please. make the right decisions...remember me.

through this all, the one thing i want you to remember, all of you, is the memories we've had. this is a really emo entry, but its how im feeling. things are definitely starting to hit me really hard. i love you guys, thanks for the best memories i could have ever dreamt of.

im quite content with a certain someone. good times to come. luckily, we're going to the same school so no goodbyes to her.:)

well, goodnite -
Donnie.

wow..its MAY 18th...8 days until we get out of school...its pretty weird because months ago I stressed on how much I wouldn't give a shit, and how happy I'd be to leave...well, im the opposite of that...well, kind of...i mean im ready to get out of school but the thought of having the choice to go to school EVER again is incredible...i want to get out of high school, but i also wanna stay. its going to be hard not walking down the hallways punching emily in her face EVERYDAY. its gonna be hard not going to techs and making fun of the great mills kids...little things ill miss, but whatever...

well, college is getting closer...im getting ready, but still have my doubts...
im taking my car which is good...but def. have to save up a lot of money before i go...summer planning is the 17th-18th at FSU, not looking forward to the testing and staying in shitty dorms.

WORK! wow, for some reason i have the biggest urge to work! i want to make money for school, and just get away from home for awhile. only working 4 days has actually made me miss my job. so gilly is putting me back to 5 days...thank god.

as far as other things...im going to miss laura a lot. im going to leave FSU and spend the night with her at towson and go to some parties (yea, no). but emily is going to salisbury...which sucks...ill prolly never see her again...and a lot of my other friends are doing the CSM thing, which is gay cuz they won't ever do anything else.

but thats all for now.
leave some comments, or die.
don

so we're in the home stretch of april...I LOVE IT. time is flying by soo fast and i love it. i have like 4 weeks left until graduation..INSANE..i keep talking about it i know but its just great.

still not much going on. stressed like crazy still, especially right now cuz im not finished my project yet and its due tomorrow for graphics..uhh..other than that im doing ok..

im dizzy right now. dont know why.

katie is awesome. dont know whats going on with that.

i work tomorrow and sunday. neat. i love my schedule this week. last night was a nightmare at work - kind of.

i chopped my fingers off almost. 2 of them.

i dont know what else to write so bye

dons

wow. im sitting about a month and 2 weeks left away until i graduate from high school. unbelievable.

things right now are completely fucking insane. im so far behind in school. finally doing good in english. i have 2 art projects that have been due that im no where close to being finished - and we're starting a new one in a couple of days.

college - wow. on top of all, i have so much paper work i have to do for frostburg that isnt getting done. like accepting my award letters, and all of that shit - it sucks.

i still have to get my meningitis shot so i dont die.

hmm, work i fucking hate it there now. before u know, it wasnt that bad becuz i had fun and stuff but now its just miserable. everyday before i go there its just like a tragedy - i hateeee it. tonight just pissed me off even more. if it wasnt for person there who i consider to be my BEST friend, i would leave now -but i cant.

starting in like a week im gonna have to start working 4 days because of how busy things are right now because im so fucking far behind in everything i just cant take working 5-6 days a week.

anyway, thats enough for now. ur all updated on the negativity in my life.

im out - prolly drinking some milk or fishing with nicole?
Dons

So, its now March 27th, Easter- big fucking deal, right? True. We're on "spring break" right now, its nothing big. working, and going to school still seems to be my agenda. a lot of exciting things are going on down in the restaurant with the new one and all that good stuff, quite intense.

i now have a little less than 2 months until im fucking done with high school, how insane. im completely ready to leave, and move to frostburg. luckily there are a few people going i like which will be a bit more comforting, but also a person or two that i cant fucking stand so hopefully won't see them.
through the last month or so ive looked at other schools and stuff, and im definitely not staying at frostburg for more than a year, or maybe 2. towson, or a couple of restaurant management schools in new yorkare sounding quite nice right now...

sounds like i have everything figured out, but the next 4 years are going to be a fucking mess. im gonna basically be poor for 4 years, thts def. gonna suck.

lately ive been thinking about leaving work, when the time comes, and its definitely going to be one of the hardest things ive ever had to do. and truthfully, that sounds ridiculous but ive established some of the best friends, or friend, ive ever had. its kind of hard to explain it, but i think those people, or persons know how i feel, and i hopefully they are that way too. u know, its just been nice meeting people without fucking drama, and meeting friends u can actually trust. im definitely dreading july-august..

lately, in the 'relationship' department, not much has changed. still confused about a few people, particularly one. hopefully it will work out one day soon? or something?

people rip stuff off my car. assholes. i need glue?

later,
dons.

not really sure why, but im actually quite disturbed right now. im just talking to people online, and thinking about everything. i'm so glad i have found myself, and am nothing like half of the ever so fake people in my life. im coming to realize that some of my good friends, are those that i cant even stand. as shallow as it may seem, i won't tell them b/c it will hurt to hear the truth.

i remember the days i used to sit back and talk about everyone, and start shit because i thought it was cool. i remember hanging out and being best friends with the people that i no longer can even stand to look at. i remember what it was like to be like YOU -- fake, and still unsure of who I truely was.

find yourself, stop trying to impress others, especially the younger croud, who really cares what they think. you think trying so hard is cool, but your true friends are sitting back, and watching you make a fool of yourself.

i think the good thing about all of this is that i wont have to put up with any of you in like 4-5 months. though there are few i will miss, i wont be leaving anything behind me.

so im a dick. what do you know? a lot of you are probably reading this asking yourself if its about you? and it probably is. especially those of you reading this that i dont really even talk to, or do talk to, but im a dick when we do talk.

wow, enough of my rambling about all of the fake people, back to my life.

tonight i talked to her for hours, it was great. shes great. i hope she ends up going to Frostburg too, instead of Villa Julie -- but i doubt thats going to happen. we're supposed to do something this week, so hopefully that all works outttttt..

we had a snow day today, and it was pretty unexpected. i woke up and nothing was on the ground so i thought we had to go. but the tv said uh uh.

anyway, im ready for all of this winter shit to be over -- and spring to come.

I hope michael jackson goes to jail or something. fucking freak.

goodnight,
don.




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